My Last Post

This will be my last post on this blog.

Experiencing a real HELL.... and out of these experiences made a decision concerning my life.

Memories always haunt me....

exactly one year back ... saw the name of the person whom i loved at first sight ..along with another mans name...

that should have been the end of all my thoughts ... but my foolishness has made me more miserable than more happy...

Starting from then till now.... this one year had been horrible and today its the maximum !!!!!!

Thought about many many factors before making this decsion... thought about the days that i cried when i realised my failure ... thought about the days that the person whom i ran after behaved with me rashly ...showing no concern whatsover , thought of those days when i held her hand ... thought of those words that we spoke to each other... thought of those eyes that i always adored... thought of her ambitious nature that always attracted me to her ... thought of many many things.... before i made this decision .... ..thought of our compatibility ..thought of the person whom she loves ... thought of her family ... her broughtup ..... my mistakes in messaging her.... thought of many many many many things.......

Nostalgia kills me forever or before i decided to kill it forever...

Heard from friends that she is living happily... may god bless her and her family a hundred years of happiness....

bye forever.....from this blog....

whoever followed this ... thanks for your curiosity in knowing what my way is and i hope i will never come in your way and i will get out of yourway ....

for that person..... the only thing that i want to tell is .... "u r the only person in this world that i will never be able to forget ..... till the last beat of my heart ... because ..... 143 " i dont deserve to say directly anymore to u now... because i am going to marry someone else...

writing after a long time....

.......took a 17 day break from blogging... :)

Somehow it fasinates me to brrod over my past or i have this worst habit of not forgetting things that are worth forgetting for... :)

the kind of weird thoughts i am getting sometimes are ...simply un imaginable or un thinkbale for any person ...

i lived in my imaginations.. i acted according to my imaginations than according to facts.. crazy ...

Some musings...

Not feeling sleepy...
so chumma writing ...

let us see oif i can take a topic.

Adapaavi

i use this quite often these days whenever i exclaim ....
its a tamil word from a movie ...
the meaning is ... "hey sin fellow"

Chumma:
Stands for "just like that" in tamil ... and "kiss" in HINDI

Unforgettable persons

there are very few persons a human can remember or can think of all the time 24 hours every day for entire year or years together.

the most common persons joining this group is immediate blood relatives , like father , mother and brother...

But thinking about a person who is unrelated to me for years together and progressing no where is the most craziest thing happening to me..

somehow i am not able to forget ... however hard i try...

however much i try to divert , somewhere or other a link to the infinte loop fof thoughts comes and thats it my whole system gets crashed...

trying ahrd for last 4 hours to sleep.

couldn't get sleep... !!!!!!!!

Dont now what to do ??????

Srikanth beats Lavanya

chk this link here...

Srikanth beats Lavanya in chennai,bangalore and hyderabad ... he he he ...

http://www.google.com/trends?q=lavanya%2Csrikanth&ctab=1&geo=all&date=all

2 Sides of a coin ....

There are always 2 sides of a coin....

the Good side of my minds coin likes these kinds of videos at any point of time.....

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5096103596865842301&q=tamil

while the bad side wants to see something totally opposite to what this video depicts.... any one can guess it ... if i am blogging at this wierd hour of the night... wide awake.....

The above video shows the Raja Raja Chola Temple of Tanjore...
Happy Watching Tanjore....

I am beginning to like tamil ... although at a wrong time .. may be becoz of some trueness in my heart.... for the things that i believed in and i trusted in....

there is a difference between manipulation and actions becoz of confusion ,memory loss and lack of awareness.

For the people who can understand this .... there is a meaning... but for the people who cannot ustand only time can answer....

Objective

Well its my last hour .... of my birthday... so i thought i will make an objective keeping in my mind the feedback given by many people surrounding me....

this i made keeping in my mind my beliefs about myself , my dreemz , my feedback...and self introspection...

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To Live a Personal Life that will be happy for the people surrounding me and to Live a Professional Life that can tap the hidden reserves of my enormous talent that i am blessed with , before my body becoms stale and the word "Late" is added before my name....

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This has come very late in my life.... otheriwise by now i would have been the father of 2 kids.

Better late than never